Saturday, July 31, 2010
Friday, July 30, 2010
Fondle?!
This took about an hour and a half to draw and colour. And I text mostly with my right hand by the way. I needed to be able to sketch my hand, that's why my left hand is holding the phone. Based on a true text.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Meet...
How Evil Overlord Rayna came to be:
rayna says:
you should get bored more often then! (; ban you from all forms of entertainment
lol
(:
Yoong Jie Pang says:
EVIL!
rayna says:
(:
i'm doing it for mankind
haha
Yoong Jie Pang says:
i should draw something about the evil overlord rayna!
rayna says:
hahaha
flattered
lol
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Big Enough
If I could have one wish tonight
I'd wish upon a satellite
To bring me back to you
We spend our whole lives searching for
All the things we think we want
And never really knowing what we have
I'd wish upon a satellite
To bring me back to you
We spend our whole lives searching for
All the things we think we want
And never really knowing what we have
-The Night that the Lights Went Out in NYC, The Ataris
Emo Paint Art, I call this! Or EPA for short. =D
Toodles!
Monday, July 26, 2010
Snippets of thoughts
Start transmission:
Have you ever heard of the kid who tried so hard yet got nowhere?
~*~
It is a world of instant gratification after all, and so patience runs thin when there don't seem to be any returns after a certain period of time. Overly caught up in the ways of the world I suppose.
~*~
There is no better time than the present to take matters into one's own hands. Seize the day, leave no thought for the morrow.
~*~
In God we trust. May God be with us all.
End transmission. Goodnight.
Have you ever heard of the kid who tried so hard yet got nowhere?
~*~
It is a world of instant gratification after all, and so patience runs thin when there don't seem to be any returns after a certain period of time. Overly caught up in the ways of the world I suppose.
~*~
There is no better time than the present to take matters into one's own hands. Seize the day, leave no thought for the morrow.
~*~
In God we trust. May God be with us all.
End transmission. Goodnight.
The airport
In a matter of a few more hours, I'll be making another trip down there again to send my older sister off. Once again I'm reminded that my holiday is coming to a close soon. =(
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Friday, July 23, 2010
Emotionless
After feeling somewhat emotionless (relatively) for about a year it does feel kind of odd having the emotions flood back in.
Some nights
There are just some nights where you stay up, unable to fall asleep, and at the same time not wanting to sleep. I suppose that this is another one of those nights, where the thoughts just keep running through my head. It's a rather odd feeling really, when lying down on my bed, I desire so much to just fall asleep yet I don't want to, knowing that if I fall asleep, the thoughts that are haunting my mind might just disappear upon waking the next morning. In a way I'll be none the worse if that happens, but I just can't put it beyond myself to attempt to put my mind to rest and just fall asleep. In a way it does feel like a kind of self-inflicted torture, masochism if you must.
It has always been a desire for me to be able to openly express these thoughts running through my mind, but often times it has been way too personal to express on a blog just like that, or to another person for that matter. I still feel wary of trusting people, to tell the truth. (But the irony is that I trust people way too easily. Paradoxical, no? Well it makes sense in my mind, if that's any consolation.) I worry about revealing too much about myself to another person; I worry that one day people may discover how shallow and fickle I really am, if they haven't already realised so. But inside, I just really feel like telling everyone how exactly I feel. A lot of my blog posts have started off with that intention in mind, but perhaps all of the time, I end up saying that some thoughts are way too personal to share.
It's hard to write when one has no idea where he should begin. And the thoughts are starting to fade fast. Should I just let these thoughts go, and attempt to go to sleep, now that part of my mind has been sort of put to rest, or should I forge on with this blog post, retaining these thoughts for longer, and perhaps not being able to sleep? Sleep is always a welcome choice I suppose. And maybe what is haunting my mind at the moment will disappear in the morning and I'll once again be a happy person.
Come to think about it, I haven't felt this down in a while. I've been too busy to be depressed. Maybe busy isn't such a good word, I think distracted would be a better one. In fact, I get the impression that I've been way too distracted to feel any proper form of emotion; depression or love. I've been going through a narrower emotion range when studying there in the states, thinking about it. Well to put this into perspective, here's a graph:
You see, what I have over here is an emotion-time graph, the red line being the emotion level during studies, which is, for this case, a randomly generated line for the purpose of this demonstration. We have an arbitrary value of "a", which denotes a point in the positive emotion, and "-a", which denotes a point in the negative emotion. Above the point "a", one is able to feel love, and below the point "-a", the depressive emotion can be felt. What my studies has done is essentially introduce a limiting emotion range of "-a" to "a", meaning that i can still feel positive emotion, as well as negative ones, such as happiness and sadness, but they are of not that great a magnitude. In other words, my studies, which are a major distraction to me, is the limiting variable. Once you take away the limiting factor, you can get this:
Now we observe the blue line in comparison the the red line. We can see that the blue line is allowed to go past the values of "a" and "-a". The blue lines show what happen if the limiting factor is taken away. Which means that I can once again feel love, as well as depression. This means I have a wider range of emotions available to me. My emotions may also be capable of doing this: (observe the green line this time.)
Infinite happiness! (Infinite depression could be possible as well, but lets not talk about it.)
Ok fine, there are probably other limiting factors, but I'm just simplifying things and assuming that the only limiting factor I have here is distraction because of my studies.
Or was I?
I can't remember what I wanted to say at the beginning actually. I suppose it's better that way.
Bottom-line is, infinite happiness is obtainable. (and I've been reading way too much xkcd for my own good)
Toodles!
It has always been a desire for me to be able to openly express these thoughts running through my mind, but often times it has been way too personal to express on a blog just like that, or to another person for that matter. I still feel wary of trusting people, to tell the truth. (But the irony is that I trust people way too easily. Paradoxical, no? Well it makes sense in my mind, if that's any consolation.) I worry about revealing too much about myself to another person; I worry that one day people may discover how shallow and fickle I really am, if they haven't already realised so. But inside, I just really feel like telling everyone how exactly I feel. A lot of my blog posts have started off with that intention in mind, but perhaps all of the time, I end up saying that some thoughts are way too personal to share.
It's hard to write when one has no idea where he should begin. And the thoughts are starting to fade fast. Should I just let these thoughts go, and attempt to go to sleep, now that part of my mind has been sort of put to rest, or should I forge on with this blog post, retaining these thoughts for longer, and perhaps not being able to sleep? Sleep is always a welcome choice I suppose. And maybe what is haunting my mind at the moment will disappear in the morning and I'll once again be a happy person.
Come to think about it, I haven't felt this down in a while. I've been too busy to be depressed. Maybe busy isn't such a good word, I think distracted would be a better one. In fact, I get the impression that I've been way too distracted to feel any proper form of emotion; depression or love. I've been going through a narrower emotion range when studying there in the states, thinking about it. Well to put this into perspective, here's a graph:
You see, what I have over here is an emotion-time graph, the red line being the emotion level during studies, which is, for this case, a randomly generated line for the purpose of this demonstration. We have an arbitrary value of "a", which denotes a point in the positive emotion, and "-a", which denotes a point in the negative emotion. Above the point "a", one is able to feel love, and below the point "-a", the depressive emotion can be felt. What my studies has done is essentially introduce a limiting emotion range of "-a" to "a", meaning that i can still feel positive emotion, as well as negative ones, such as happiness and sadness, but they are of not that great a magnitude. In other words, my studies, which are a major distraction to me, is the limiting variable. Once you take away the limiting factor, you can get this:
Infinite happiness! (Infinite depression could be possible as well, but lets not talk about it.)
Ok fine, there are probably other limiting factors, but I'm just simplifying things and assuming that the only limiting factor I have here is distraction because of my studies.
Or was I?
I can't remember what I wanted to say at the beginning actually. I suppose it's better that way.
Bottom-line is, infinite happiness is obtainable. (and I've been reading way too much xkcd for my own good)
Toodles!
First post here
Well I'm back at blogger. The results of my little tumblr experiment: I prefer blogger over tumblr. So...
New blog! Same address!
=)
New blog! Same address!
=)
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